Thursday, May 2, 2013

Pass A Tissue

I'm in the midst of one of the most difficult things about being a mom... being a SICK mom.

I woke up Saturday morning with a sore throat and a bit of a headache. I figured it was just my sinuses or allergies (even though I don't typically suffer from those) and went on about my day. As the days progressed, my sore throat got worse and I started to get congested. I can't breathe out of my right nostril. I'm hacking. And then last night I end up with an earache. Essentially, I feel like shit all the way around.

Yet, Bimmer doesn't know or understand. I can't tell her to sit and play quietly because Mommy is having trouble breathing and it's just easier to sit in silence and focus on not dying. She wants me to be down on the ground with her, playing, being silly, talking to her and being my normal self. Even when I don't feel anywhere close to normal.

Puff and I were really lucky this winter though. Neither of us came down with the flu or caught that nasty stomach bug that was going around. I wouldn't even know what to do with parenting if I were sitting on the toilet with a garbage can between my knees. Let's pause and say a prayer that doesn't happen until Bimmer is at least older!

Now, I know there are other moms out there who have honest to goodness illnesses and battle much worse all the time. And I'm just here to say that I applaud you. I bow to your amazingness. I have a head cold and I am already anxious to drop her off at daycare so I can go back to bed for awhile. I've been lucky this morning that she was snuggly and fine to just chill until she wanted to take a morning nap. I was able to shower while she was in her crib asleep and am catching up on work emails before I take her to daycare.

But yes, I am desperately looking forward to a day at home. In quiet. Fingers crossed it's just what the doctor ordered. Because the weekend is fast approaching, and we all know we don't sit still for long around here!

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